O.K….so the Level 1 & 2 clinic with Kristi Smith was incredible. I cannot stress enough what an excellent instructor she is. This was a very useful experience for all involved. Somehow we missed the whole “if your horse can’t walk, trot, canter and jump something on-line with rythmn and relaxation then they are not ready to ride” part of Parelli. Big OOOPS! Lots of holes to fill in. Loved her advice to Maryann about not getting into a tug of war with Spike. And how she loves the way Spike looks at Maryann. Wow, got right to the point with Woody-LBI. He still gets RBI, but seeing him at a distance with Kristi playing with him it was so obvious. Hopefully Randy is refitting a broken 22 ft. line to become a cinch strap. And hopefully I will be able to help Tom get the feel of using two lines at once. I was so proud of the horses and their humans. Just agreeing to go to this clinic was huge, and I think it will be good for everyone’s confidence in the long run. So thankful for Rabiah’s advice on trailering Woody, and for all the work that was done by all of us on Spike & Woods to get them on their way. We made it and lived!
The trip Tues to Bluehorse with Loni and Kristi was very enjoyable, enlightening and exhausting. It only took them about 15 minutes to check under Mishkinaw’s hood, so to say. They found out what I already knew about him, he’s going to be a great horse. If Tom & I can work out the money and a couple of other important details, Loni has agreed to start him for me. YEAH!!! She said her husband might not want to give him back. Then back to Winterhawk for Kristi’s assessment of Tai. She doesn’t usually tell folks what she thinks their horse’s Horsenality is, but she said definitely innately-LBI. I had told her I had “paralysis of analysis” lately with his Horsenality, so thanks Kristi for taking pity on me.
I showed Kristi what I normally do with my Buddy and she listened to my assessment of “still cinchy after all these years.” Tai needs more variety and for a longer period of time and at higher speed than our usual MO. Apparently I have been boring him witless! OOPS! She had me saddle him and at least I seemed to have that down, and polite. Kristi knew I skeptical of what Tai could handle, but she wanted to go back to the back cinch. I brought that out, and it brought out ALL of Tai’s old “STUFF.” Nothing but holes everywhere. At least I spent 3 years “restoring his faith in humanity.” I know how huge a job that was and what a big responsibility. I could not have received a higher compliment from Kristi. We knew he was going to “blow up” as soon as he moved, and the strategy is to have him disengage his hindqtrs until he can do it in a relaxed manner. Kristi took Tai thru this initially. Using the Falling leaf pattern, lots of cantering and transitions, travelling circling over obstacles and jumps. He did manage to find some relaxation, but I could tell it is not the relaxed I’m used to. She said that she would ride him, and I said I would not. She did get on, and she played with lateral flexion and disengagement, but it was difficult for him to do and for me to watch. Kristi warned me that it would feel like I was back in level 1, and she is correct. She has recommended not riding until I get the back cinch issue resolved. She seems to think it won’t take so long and I can’t seem to wrap my brain around it ever happening, though I am willing to try. She kept at things until it was too dark to go on. Tai was drenched in that “sticky” feeling “emotional” sweat. Tai and I had both been holding our breath. Jeez, where did all my qigong breathing practice go?
On the drive to take Hannah home, I was finally able to take a breath but I felt sick and drained. I told Hannah that was only after 2 hours, what’s it going to feel like 8 hours a day, five days a week, for a month? Good Googlies, what was I thinking? Trepidation is starting to take over. I need to decompress and lick and chew more. I’d like to get back to my “happy place” without going catatonic. And breathe! Oh well, looking forward to the level 3 clinic. Can’t wait to see Beth and Lauren with their faithful steeds Linus and Charlie. Ladies, it’s going to be all about filling holes and getting things better by just 1% at a time. I gotta let that be my mantra, but I feel like Tai and I are starting at minus 300%. I feel a “Belief System” change on my horizon…hope it’s on Tai’s, too.
O.K., so Wednesday AM was all about getting the “parelli feed” program going for the Florida bound guys. Jeez, that was complex and time consuming. It also may have been about avoidance for me. I’d rather it was just a “retreat” from the previous evening, but I will have to sort out the difference. Finally after being at the barn for almost three hours, I get to see if Tai still likes me. He has managed to be as far away out in the back field as he can get all morning. Hmmm, how interesting. Not however unexpected-I know him. Put the new alfalfa cubes and his “crack” and Winnie’s cookies with APF in his old blue bucket and start calling. Nothing. I usually go with the “meet in the middle” theme, but I had to at least 2/3 of the way and it took about 20 minutes to get him to start making his way back. Don’t strain yourself Tai. I started walking back to the black trough, and after Tai made it thru the back gate I did get a trot to me, WooHoo! I’ll take it. Man was he dirty. Must have had to roll like crazy last night after our session with Kristi. I know how you feel Buddy, cause I rolled like crazy all night, too! O.K. slightly less “Trepid.” Kristi said I had built up a large bank account with my friendly, so I could afford to make some withdrawals now. Phew!!
I was too tired to get right into anything with Tai, and our usual MO is friendly just for coming out of the field so I decided not to change that today. We ate lunch first. Then interestingly Tai stood in the aisle way of the barn for me to brush him. With a pretty stiff brush mind you. He hates stiff brushes…where’s Tai and what did you do with him? OMG that was possibly one of our best “just grooming” sessions ever. Hmmm, how interesting. Went to the arena with the saddle, new pad and back cinch. Tried to do the “warm up strong so you can ride soft” like Kristi did. I still probably just don’t ask enough. He was very engaged with me though so we went to the saddle. Jeez, I can’t remember the order of let air out, tighten cinch, close air…I only asked Kristi to repeat it to me 5 times. Going to have to write it down and be more specific with that. Last night the saddle placement looked fine, today, even if I had ridden, I would not have been able to access my balance point. I could tell just looking at it. Got the big blow up, sans bucking though I think. He wanted to, and he was so tight. It was really stressing us both out. I kept doing Falling leaf to the best of my ability which was nonexistent. Think I saw some relaxation. We played strong again, not as strong as Kristi, but I do think we got some relaxation though he was still doing many things tightly. Couldn’t tell if his highhead was upset/tight or exuberance-paralysis of analysis again. Got things stopped on what I think was a good note, but I was certainly not going to attempt to get on him. We’re not there, yet. He also did not get sweaty except in his girth area and it was just starting ever so slightly behind the ears. So maybe less emotional with me or again, I just don’t ask enough. This is why we’re going to Florida. I’m so glad that Kristi is going to be there as well. Also really grateful that there will be lots of quality instructors, some even better than Kristi according to her. I can’t imagine. Having debriefed myself like this, I am starting to feel less nausea and more of that excited butterfly feeling in my gut. I’m taking that as a good sign. All I need is 1% more excited. We’re just going to try until someone more knowledgeable knows when to stop. It’s all about the “try.”






































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